Dude Where's My Blog?!?!

God damn. I try not to use God, but this is the only word that can really really describe what Iíam trying to say. Well letís go back to summer of ë04. I wonít use names so I just use letters.

There use to be this girl “A” We used to do things during the summer, not as much me and her, but with other people. I liked her a bunch. I would do almost anything for her; all she had to do was say it. During the summer I kind of acted like a dumbass and did something terrible. From that point on I stopped talking to her. I really thought that ended any chances of me and her ever being together. Once school started I would always see her, but never say anything, you know just turn my head. After sometime I thought that was enough hiding so I heard that she was going to join this one club. So you know I joined to. Every time I would see her I would always want to say “Hi” or hello, something like that. It was just too hard to tell whether or not she was angry with me. Iím not an expert at knowing these things.

So then recently came girl “B” She was okay. I liked her, yeah, but the people she hanged around with. When they we around us they would always have these inside jokes and shit. I would have the slightest clue what they were talking about. Anyways she liked me lots and was waiting for me to ask her to get together, but I was unsure. I do like her, well in some ways. It seemed more physical and no love. Now that I thought of it, I think it was more physical then true love.

Chick “C” Whoa. It all started with one little thing and now has lead me to a huge choice (I’ll get back to it later). Let’s just say I took her to this one event and now I guess I ëam the one for her or something. She was okay and all, but I wouldnít have gone for her if this never happened. I guess she thought this was the start to everything or so it went that way. I noticed little by little we would start talking to each other. With half days at school any everything that kind of helped her out and made it worse for me. Somehow my friend would convince me to stay with them. Both my friend and chick “C” have the same class and work on projects after school. So yeah I would stay with them for a while then when I would leave she would seem like she wanted to leave and I would ask you want to come with me and a couple of other people to go eat (Just being nice), and of course she would say yes. When that would end I would always have to take them home. I think thatís what gave her the idea of me liking or having any idea of me liking her.

At this time girl “B” and chick “C” both liked me, I could tell. So I was kind of leaning towards chick “C” since it did seem like “B” was just physical and I really had nothing in common. So I kind of stopped talking to girl “B” and went on for “C”. About maybe 2 days later I found that that girl “A” likes me. I was like shitting my pants. It was like a fucking dream came true and all the angels sang. The bad side it was a tad to later. What the fuck was I suppose to do? Shit, I was thinking about moving and changing my name. Girl “A” wanted to see if it can work, but again itís kind of late to just forget about chick “C.” So I did some research on internet and asking many people who they would of went for. Most people said go with girl “A.” I do like her, but then again most said go with chick “C.” Girl “A” had her chance others said. Not everyone is nice ha-ha.

Then came Valentines Day. It was kind of a big day. I had to make a choice: Ask her or not. It was kind of stupid of me in the first place, why go out on Valentines Day and not even be with the person. So I ended up asking chick “C” and of course she said yes. So that was the end of that?… Ahhh

Just today I talked to girl “A” and we went over about how I used to like her and she used to like me. Damn there was so much I didnít know. All these things she was reminding me of were suppose to be hints that she liked me. Shit I didnít know. So we exchange moments in the past and what now. She got me thinking, did I make the right choice? After talking to her I really felt like I’ve made the wrong choice.

~If only I could travel back in time everything would be right.

Tips?
~Go for the only you like, even if itís happened along time ago.
~Timing is everything.
~Donít ask to get with them unless you think about the outcomes.

“Don’t hold back how you feel about someone. No matter what it is you should tell them because one day you might regret not telling them.”

Sorry for my horrible english and writing.